Classic Rock on the radio. Sitting near the water. Early night where darkness has fully settled in but there is still some slight movement in the world. It all came flooding back. Long forgotten memories of years past. Nearly two decades. Alice Cooper and the Eagles brought it back. Sitting near the river staring at the dock. Waiting for you to arrive. Red van then blue truck. I can still picture them clearly every detail though your face blurs in my mind. Budweiser soaked haze. There's going to be a heartache tonight.
Cell phones didn't exist back then, quick phone calls the others house, fingers crossed a parent wouldn't answer. Steppenwolf. Illicit rendezvous though everyone knew. Born to be wild... It was convenience more than anything, needs met without any pressure. Emotionless. Silent. Perfect. It was all I could handle back then. All I could handle for such a long time. Self-destructive. Scared. I wonder sometimes if I'm being punished now for all the hurt I caused back then.
Cheap Trick. Thinking about him now. Wanting him while I remember you. I want him to want me. Fully. Like you wanted me then. I'm stronger now then I was then though. Know my limits. My words. I need to voice them though and he's now silent. Emotionless. Like I was back then. Full circle? I need you to need me.
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