(yesterdays post took a tangent I wasn't expecting but it was what came... the timing is everything quote came from another place, other thoughts that have been stuck in my head... this time part 2)
An old friend once told me that 'timing is everything' as we all know but thinking about it lately it's ringing much more true for me... I don't know how to fully explain why - I think it's just where I'm at now, what I want - the contradictions.
There are so many things in my life I look back on and wonder 'what if' - not in a regretful way at all but choices, decisions, fears. What if it had been different. What would it have looked like. What would my life have looked like?
It's funny having these thoughts, here and now - I mean - I'm right where I'm supposed to be, I know this. I believe this. I'm happy and confident and I love my life. I just wonder if I'd been this aware, this happy in my younger days how would it have looked? How would my life have looked? How different, how settled.
I think what's spurning these thoughts the most are the people I'm meeting - at this place and time. Specific people. What if - what if I'd met them sooner? Later? How would it all be different - how would we both be different? Is this the right time, now - only now? Is this a temporary, fleeting thing? I hope that it's not. I hope, believe that it's not. Can't be. But I also am fully aware of our differences, our wants, our dreams. So I cherish now and all there is, now. In pieces.
Any other point in time would have huge implications, complications - our paths might have never crossed - we might never have shared our stories like we do now. We'd have been two completely different people in our growth, our experiences. So I guess I do believe - timing is everything. And I'm happy I've met you - now. Here and now.
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