I wrote the words... let them loose knowing full well you'll see them - I'll point you right to them. I don't know how you'll react but I feel better just knowing they're out there. If they make you run off then you're not meant to be part of my life - it's just that simple. Why constrain who I am to make someone else feel better. I just can't do it, won't. No censorship, just me. Only me. I have faith - believe that you're not like the others - understand the situation just as I do - better than I do. Enjoy our time together - simple moments. Reading nothing more than the words on the page for what they are, conversations unspoken.
I've learned through moving half way around the world that people are all that we have in our lives - the material things come and go - fences rebuilt, houses sold - but people - they are a reflection of ourselves in whatever form they come in. The ones that are our roots, always there to bring us back, remind us who we are. The ones in the here and now - just this moment - a brief connection to teach us something in this space in time. Then there are the constants which are much harder to come by - we've become such an insular society, absorbed in ourselves but we can't always do it alone - and so we search for the pieces - the people who will be constant. Connected. Cherished.
I want you in my life in some form and feel that it will happen - that it's already happening. I am happy that I met you.
(I didn't mean for this post to be about you but after yesterday - I felt the need for a clarification - a qualifier. Definitely a qualifier knowing I will spend the week wondering what you think of my writing - the silence is a struggle - the openness from this distance - terrifying)
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