August 1st...

Another month... life is settling in Australia for me, I'm happy.  Truly happy and yet there is still a (small) hole in my heart that yearns for you - to have you back in my life.  I miss you and still you never answer your phone.  I worry sometimes - maybe something has happened, maybe you're not even on this planet any more and it's something I can't even comprehend - it freaks me out to think that something like that could happen and I'd really have no idea.  I can't convey how much I miss you - I do.  You are so much a part of me and I wish you could see me know - see what I have become.  See what I needed to be before I ever met you.

And lyrics - I hear these all the time - I hope you're happy, in love, with a family. I wish for all of that for you by now and so this song, in my head rings so true:

Adele - Someone Like You

I heard that your settled down.
That you found a girl and your married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah.

You'd know how the time flies.
Only yesterday was the time of our lives.
We were born and raised in a summery haze.
Bound by the surprise of our glory days.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over yet.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

Nothing compares, no worries or cares.
Regret's and mistakes they're memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remembered you said:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remembered you said:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah.

I miss you - wholeheartedly I do.  Please just say hello.  Let me know you're out there.